Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Why tragedy fuels our writing

 
Writing is a solid form of therapy for any one who has been through something painful in their life. Whether it be a break up, death of a loved one, or abuse writing can help us face those issues and over come them. You don't have to be an Ernest Hemingway or J.K Rowling to use writing as a therapeutic measure, you just have to be willing to write.
 
 
 
"Momma"
 
This is a poem I wrote as a young child. As you can see it isn't the best poem, and it won't be winning me any Pulitzer prizes. However, it served its purpose. It allowed me to express my anger toward my mother through art and thus allowed me to move past that anger. My mother was a drug addict my entire life and for a long time I hated her. Maybe a part of me still does... However, I'm not blinded by those feelings of anger and hatred any longer because I express them through my writing. Without writing I don't think I'd be alive today. I went through a lot of terrible things as a child, things that were almost impossible to face as a young adult. With poetry I was able to lay out my feelings on paper so they weren't clouding my judgment. Eventually my poetry got better and those feelings became art.
 
 
 
 
Now I don't think this one will win me a Pulitzer prize either however I do feel that it's a lot better. I thought of my mother and how when she was high she was sporadic and sloppy then she would start coming down and be almost comatose. There were moments during her fall where you could see a shadow of what she used to be. A young pitiful girl with a bright future but a haunted mind. She was beautiful in the same way a tornado might be, you knew it was destructive but you didn't dare look away. I was able to realize recently that I love my mother in a strange way. Without writing I don't think I ever would have been able to come to that conclusion.
 
So I guess what I'm trying to get at is that you should write. Write in a daily journal, write poetry, write blurbs, write songs....just write. I don't care if you don't have a big vocabulary or you aren't a creative person writing isn't hard if you're writing what you feel. I promise it will help you get through whatever ails your heart or mind. And if it doesn't then you can call me and scream your problems to me.
 
 
-Maggie V.
 


Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Inspired Writing - Photo Series

 
As a writer there are several things that inspire my creative flow. It could be anything from the music I'm listening to, a book I've read, or even a photograph. Below I have three photos that I chose today that inspired me to write. I wanted to show how simple it was to be inspired and how we should all search for things that inspire us in everyday life.
 
The Photos Below Were Taken From Tumblr
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"Wanderlusters"
A Poem By Margaret Verece
 

 
"Falling In Love"
 
A Piece By Margaret Verece
 

"The Burning Mind"
 
A Piece By Margaret Verece
 
 
 
As you can see each of these photographs inspired something different. If you like what you see here I have more original work on my facebook https://www.facebook.com/margaretverece
 
and also visit my website www.margaretverece.com to purchase a copy of my book Life Through Shadowed Eyes: A Book of Poetry.
 
I encourage you as an artist to go out and find something that inspires you today!
 
Much love,
 
Maggie V.

 
 

Friday, February 6, 2015

Skye Dive - A Preview


Skye Dive

 

Chapter One:

 

I sat in my classroom staring blankly at my notebook as my teacher lectured in front of the blackboard. He was going on and on about the cubist movement. His voice was booming throughout the tiny Lake City community college classroom of 22 students. About halfway into his art lecture I tuned him out and entered my own world. I started daydreaming about dinner. Not about eating it but instead wondering what I was going to make for Abigail and myself. I was craving chicken but I knew Abigail would say we eat too much chicken and beg for something like salmon.

Abigail is my seventeen year old sister and my whole world. We've been taking care of one another for pretty much our entire lives but more so over the last three years since our parents disappeared. Before our parents bailed I was a typical senior in high school and Abigail was just entering her freshmen year. To all of our friends and classmates we were just normal high school students. Then one day we were orphans and anything but normal. I guess we weren’t normal to begin with but no one else knew that until our parents left.

Maryanne and Jacob Griffin were two of the most unfit parents God ever graced with children. Our father was never home unless he was picking up our mother for another one of their escapades that would involve thievery, drugs, and who knows what else. Our beloved parents were always under the influence of one drug or another and money was always tight. However, our lives got even less than perfect three years ago when our parents left and never came back. A day I remember clearly. I was riding my bike home from work and immediately sensed something was wrong. When I walked through the door Abigail was alone on the couch enveloped in one of her books. She was always reading. The house seemed emptier though nothing was actually missing.

"There's a letter for you on the table." Abbie said as I walked through the living room.

Our house was small and we only had one breakfast style table in the corner of the kitchen. Nothing else lay on the oak chipped table except a folded sheet of paper with my name on it. "Skyler" was written in my mother's beautiful cursive handwriting. I knew immediately something was up because she never had the courtesy to leave us a note before. So why now I thought. I took the letter to the back room where Abbie and I slept. On the left side of the room was a motel-style roll away bed where Abbie slept and on the right a broken metal futon that I called a bed. In the corner by our closet was a red and black four drawer dresser. Nothing else furnished the room except an old mahogany rocking chair our grandmother had given us. I thought about how when Abbie was a baby I used to rock her to sleep in that chair. I walked over sat down and began reading the letter. Something about the memories of that chair comforted me as I read the last words my mother had to say to me.

          "Dear Skyler,

                   Your father and I are leaving town but this time we won’t be coming back. Don’t try looking for us please. You already do a good job taking care of Abigail on your own, much better than I ever could have. I’d apologize for not being a better mother to you and Abigail but apologies won’t help you now. Don't ask yourself why we left because it doesn't matter. Don't worry yourself either. Your father and I will be just fine. I know both of you girls are going to be fine too. Just try and remember that no matter what happens however strange or horrible it may seem you can get through it. And Please Skye watch over your sister she’s all you really have now.

                                      Always,

                                      Maryanne"

 

I sat in class thinking about that day three years ago wondering why she left but not caring that she had. She was right Abbie and I did just fine without them. We had a little help of course but all in all we did fine on our own. At first child services tried to take us away to some foster program but with the help of my grandfather who was an attorney, the local judge allowed me parental control when I turned eighteen. Until that time came Abbie and I had stayed with my boyfriend and his parents. After three months we were able to move out and back into our old home. My grandparents sent us $800 dollars a month to help pay the bills and I worked at the local pizzeria to pay for food and the extras. Money was still tight but we were used to it by now. A lot of people had wondered why we didn't go stay with our grandparents but we wanted it this way. I felt like Abbie was my responsibility and Lake City was our home. It was just the way things needed to be.

"Skyler, Skyler! Earth to Miss Griffin." I heard Mr. Garrison trying to get my attention.

"Yes sir?" I answered embarrassed that I'd not been paying attention.

"I asked you a question but you failed to answer it. Tell me is what you are daydreaming about interesting? Would you like to share it with the rest of the class?" he asked obviously trying to embarrass me in front of my classmates. I refused to play his game.

"What was the question?" I asked coolly. He turned to the board and huffed.

"Well, now that I have your attention can you tell me what you see in this picture?" he asked as he pointed to the overhead board which had one of Picassos more famous pieces projected onto it. To this day I don't remember which piece.

"Fire, a burning fire and a horrible smell like rotted hot garbage and a man! A man with dark clothing he's staring right at me." I finished

"What?" I heard a kid laugh out behind me then Mr. Garrison yelled something and then it all went black.

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I awoke to the beeping sound of an EEG and a blinding overhead light that assured me I was alive. I also awoke with a raging migraine that made me wish I wasn't.

"I snuck you in some coffee." I heard Abigail’s soft voice from the doorway.

She looked so beautiful standing there. She had long black hair that flowed to the middle of her back and striking green eyes. Her skin was pale unlike mine and she had the body of a full grown woman. If she weren't so headstrong I'd worry about her all the time. Oh who was I kidding I worried about her nonstop.

"Thanks" I finally managed taking the coffee from her and trying to gather my thoughts. "Why'd they bring me to the hospital?" I asked sitting up and taking a sip of the forbidden coffee.

"Well they could have taken you some place worse but when you blacked out and hit your head Mr. Garrison thought the hospital would be the best option." her tiny voice rang with concern.

For a moment we sat in silence and I studied her sullen face. Abigail and I had a bond so tight it was like I could read her mind and in that moment I did.

"No I'm not telling anyone the truth. I don't even know what the truth is anymore. Things will blow over and everything will go back to normal." I said too harshly

"Normal? Really Skye because to most people having visions of people dying that come true is not NORMAL! Neither is blacking out. We've been keeping it to ourselves for far too long. This started two years ago how long are we supposed to wait for it to stop? At least tell Alice or David." she softly but sternly pleaded.

Alice had been my best friend since middle school and David was my boyfriend of four years. If I was going to tell anyone it would probably be one of those two but I was set on keeping this between me and Abbie.

"I'm not telling anyone and neither are you. I'll sign the papers chalk it up to an episode of bad dreaming and I'll be out of here in a couple of days. Okay?" I asked hating the sour look on her face.

"I don't like it or agree with it but okay." she groaned.

It hurt me to see her upset with me but I knew she would do whatever I wanted. Sometimes that made it worse because I wasn't always sure what I wanted.

"I promise something will work out. I'll come up with something." I said trying to convince myself more than her.

"What something?" David's gruff voice filled the small room.

"Nothing, what are you doing here?" I asked with a weak smile.

"Well when you didn't pick up Abigail from school she called me and I came and got her then the hospital called my parents. They're still your emergency contact. Oh yeah and the fact that I was worried to death." he said as he leaned in and kissed my forehead.

"And I just came along for the ride." Alice said coming up behind David.

"Well thank you both for worrying about me but I'm fine really. Thank you for picking up Abbie, David." I said feeling very uncomfortable.

"I'm just glad you're okay we didn't know what happened until we got here." I could almost count the worry lines on his face.

"What exactly did happen?" I asked. I had not been able to remember it all yet.

David started first "You were in class and Mr. Garrison asked you a question and out of nowhere you started talking about a fire and a bad smell and how some man was there staring at you." he paused for a moment concern and tears filling his eyes. Abigail finished for him "Mr. Garrison said you wouldn't respond and then you just kept saying those poor women and that the flames were burning your eyes. Then you fell over and hit your head. They called the ambulance in case of a concussion or worse." she said her emerald eyes pleading with me.

"Well it sure gave me a bad headache." I said trying to play it off and turning away from their gazes.

"Are you really okay Skye? I mean truthfully." David asked. His big brown eyes were staring into me hard. He was trying to search me for some clue that might show him how I really felt. In four years of our relationship he still did not know how to read me and within three months I had learned to read him. To be fair I wasn't as simple. The only person who really knew me was Abbie.

"I'm fine. I've had day mares before I'm sure that is all it was. No worries." I said patting his hand like a mother consoling her son.

"Day mares...now that's a new one. I believe we could make a television show based off day mares." Alice piped in with one of her sarcastic remarks.

"I bet I could be the star." I answered back playing along. We both were trying to ease the tension floating to me from both David and Abbie.

"No way you're too flaky; you wouldn't show up half the time and there’d be complaints about you blacking out on set." Alice said and we all laughed.

After the tension settled we sat around and talked for a good thirty minutes before I pretended to nod off. It wasn't that I didn't want them there but I didn't like them seeing me this way. No one wants to be seen hooked up to machines while wearing a half open nightgown. Pretty soon after I "dozed off" David and Alice took off. I knew David had skipped his night class he took each Friday to come see me but I also knew he'd want to have dinner with his parents soon and Alice would need to get back to work. The club she partially owned in Orlando would be opening up soon. She took over running the bottom half of the club after her mom passed away last year. I knew she would not have stayed long even if I hadn't pulled my little trick. She was a busy girl.

After Alice and David left I kept my eyes closed a little while longer. I wanted to try and think about everything that had happened and what I was going to do about it all.

"You can stop pretending." Abbie piped up in her soft voice.

"Excuse me?" I asked feigning dramatic surprise as if shocked at any inclination I was lying.

"Oh please. So tell me is it time we try some more research on this matter? This is the first time it happened during the day." she said

Abbie was right I never had my visions unless it was early morning or late at night and usually I was already sleeping. They had never been this strong either. This time I was worried. I couldn't let this keep happening.

"We've done so much research already and come up with zilch. I just don't see what more research will do." I said honestly.

"Well we need to do something they're getting stronger and they are happening more often." she replied.

"Yeah and I'm starting to feel more. Like this time I could actually feel the fire burning my skin." I replied. I was always honest with Abbie even if I knew what I was saying would scare her.

"We need to find out more about this Skye. I don't like not knowing what's happening to you. It's like we have no control."

I didn't respond because I didn't want to lie and say it would all be okay. I wasn't sure it would be and I was leaning toward the idea that it wouldn’t. I knew how she felt when she said we had no control. It was like we were diving blindly into something that could swallow us whole. I was worried about us more than I showed but I had to remain strong for Abbie. However I knew I would have to figure something out soon because I felt like things were going to get even worse.

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Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Writing Tip: Let Go Of Perfection



Over the weekend I had some terrible coffee with a writing colleague. She mentioned to me that she had not written much lately because she couldn't think of how to finish the story she was working on. I asked why she hadn't tried starting something new to refresh her mind and her response was expected....I don't want to start something new until I've perfected what I'm working on now. Many writers feel this way, which I'm afraid to say is why many writers suffer from chronic writer's block. Many writer's think that perfecting their current work is the only way to become successful. However a writer who thinks that their first draft of anything is going to be perfect is either foolish or insane.

For example Hemingway said he wrote For Whom The Bell Tolls nearly 17 times before he felt it came close to perfection. That means that all of us amateur writers need to write something at least 30 times before it can be considered "good". We also need to work on several pieces to keep our mind fresh. When a writer gets stuck on one story and doesn't exercise their creative mind in another way they could be stuck for years. Trust me...I did it. I had been working on a novel and when I got stuck I just stopped writing for nearly two years. I felt like if I couldn't move forward on that one novel then I was no writer at all. Not only did thinking that way send me into a deep depression it also made me the biggest idiot in the world.

As writers we have an obsessive need to express our creativity through the written word. So when that need is blocked by our own fear of failure we become empty. That is why I suggest to anyone who writes to always work on several pieces at once. Whether you are working on a novel and in your spare time you write short stories or if you spend your spare time writing terrible poetry like myself....always be writing. Hell write in a journal for all I care just WRITE. If you stop writing as a writer you stop living!

Sometimes I just scroll through photos on tumblr and try to find something that inspires me to write whether its a picture or someone's story. In fact I did that this morning (see below). Even if its just blurbs here and there you should always be writing. I'm hoping my colleague took my advice to continue writing because she's damn good at it and I hope you take my advice too.

-Much Love, Maggie V